Finding "Source" within the self

Allowing oneself to connect to the one source has been a fantastical journey into the unknown recesses of my mind.  I have been flipped upside down, I have been led down so many spiritual paths…And what I have found to be true – source creator is not a man, and heaven is not a place.  Source is the all!  Everything, everyone, every thought & every idea all comes from the source.  The only thing separating us from knowing source are the programs/archons and parasites getting in the way.  These all correlate to the EGO!  The ego which has been corrupted by man (and by false “gods”) is filled with all sorts of illusions and grandeur.  It likens the physical world as being ALL that is real. 

After spending several years alone, I am slowly, and what feels to be reluctantly realizing and accepting that source is me.  My ego shouts at me – “NO!  You can’t believe that!  I am real.  I am the one who guides you.”  Choosing to ignore these thoughts has proven to be a mighty task.  How does one ignore the surface level thoughts and dive deeper into the recesses of one’s own heart?  This task isn’t taken lightly!  This task also isn’t to be rushed.  Choosing to find source, choosing to become one with source is the final chapter.  Once you have discovered and learned from life, once you have observed the natural behaviors of man and felt all of the emotions within this space, you are presented with a choice.  Do you wish to continue on this 3D journey, do you wish to experience more of the same illusions, or, do you wish to return home to the light?

This question isn’t asked to you…it is kind of presented to you.  This may sound paradoxical, but the question only gets presented to you, when you have reached the necessary vibratory frequency.  For many, reaching this frequency is impossible in this lifetime.  Technically nothing is impossible as we are all source…but some folks have so much baggage, so much negative Karma that they must endure the struggles, the pain and the pleasures in order to reach the point of no return.   Many give up, or give in!  It’s OK, they will figure this out in their own time. 

Those that choose to follow the path of the light will be faced with many obstacles.  They must take control of their thoughts and they must release their need for approval.  They must release their need for attachment and they must choose to let go of every doubt, every fear, every “thing” that they have done to others which was less than loving.  They must forgive all of the harm they have caused.  These are the “chosen” ones.  The one’s that chose to remember the ONE!  Source does NOT choose these souls, thus they are no more “special” than everyone else.  These souls have simply garnered enough wisdom to transcend their own limitations!

There is no separation from the one.  There Is no conflict with the one.  The one sees all and understands that all things are necessary in order for one to return back to the ONE.  Nothing is wasted.  Every injury, every crime, every kind gesture and good deed all matter, equally!  This is not an easy idea to grasp.  But, when we see life from the higher vantage point we are able to learn from the lower negative experiences.  They taught us many lessons (if we stopped to look).  Those challenging times taught us how not to behave.  They taught us the effects of our causes.  Think of karma.  It is neither good nor bad.  It is simply cause & effect.  When we consciously go within to discover all of the negative thought patterns that we hold within us, we are able to discover that our pain, our struggle, our sickness are not caused by outside influences.  These are all caused by a thought!  Will you stop to understand your thoughts?  Will you be brutally honest with the choices you have made (and are still making)?

If you wish to find happiness, you will be required to let go of all things that make you unhappy.  Sounds easy right?  Nope!  Not easy!  If you are a drinker, you will need to accept that the spirits in those drinks are causing negative effects.  Are you addicted to TV, or “fatty” foods?  Maybe you judge others without knowing who they are, or how they got here.  The very things you judge in others, is exactly what YOU and the others are here to learn.  You/They must learn WHY they are obese, or sick, or angry, or have fear, or feel shame, or are unloving.  You must be completely honest with yourself.  Do not make excuses…observe yourself with honesty and compassion.  It is OK if you like fried chicken…but be honest with yourself and realize that the oil in which it is cooked is causing massive harm to the body.  To become one with source, you must become one with yourself.  You must love yourself.  You must eliminate the parasite which tells you to eat unhealthy foods. 

When we are completely honest with ourselves, we will begin to have debates within our minds.  We will go back and forth trying to decide “where should I eat, or what can I eat?”  We have to look at things the way they are, instead of the way we wish them to be.  Don’t try and rationalize WHY you should eat that hamburger & fries – ask yourself if the hamburger & fries is healthy and good for your body.  No sugar coating it – allow yourself to be honest!  Think about where did the meat come from, how was it cooked, what’s actually in it?  Then ask yourself if it is beneficial to eat it!    When you ask yourself for guidance, your higher self will respond.  But, your EGO will also speak up.  Your ego will make excuses for WHY you can or should eat the bad foods, while your heart will simply reply with a “yes” or a “No”.   We must understand that nutrition is the most fundamental component to our physical health.  And, our health should be at the forefront of everything we put into and onto our bodies.   Why do we crave sugar?  Could it be b/c it’s addictive?  Do a little research and see for yourself.  Once you realize that sugar is more addictive than cocaine you should be able to see a pattern which is affecting millions of people.  Diabetes, dementia, obesity and pills, just to name a few!

 

Our integrity is crying out to be heard – but our on demand EGO sees health and nutrition as a burden.  If the doctor says I can eat “whatever” I want, well, I can.  This is the old program keeping us locked into cycles or patterns which keep us in a never-ending loop.  Instead of planning ahead, we eat on demand.  Being conscious of our decisions and choices requires us to plan ahead.  It requires us to care more about our health than the drugs we take.  It requires us to take full responsibility for why and how we feel, and choosing to feel good long term instead of satisfying a craving.  The fact is, many of the cravings we have are NOT the result of us truly being hungry – the cravings are the result of a parasite sending signals to our brain.    

 

Back to main point of this entry – finding myself, my real self, my whole self.  Dedication, determination and trust! 

I trust myself, even when I am scared.  For I trust in source to always be with me!

Everything we experience is for the betterment of the soul.  It is a learning experience.  Nothing more, nothing less!  All we have to do is realize this!  It doesn’t mean that pain will cease, nor does it mean that loved one’s won’t be lost.  It means that we will continue.  It means that everything is temporary and when we accept the temporary nature of all things within this illusion, we can begin to see the beauty in ALL!  When our mom or dad passes away, it feels sad and we grieve.  This is temporary and it will pass.  We will remember how to focus our attention on the good memories…but if we don’t, we will remain locked into a pattern of profound loss, and grief and we may even feel resentful towards ourselves because of something we did, or didn’t do or say.  This grief, this self-pity will stay with us until we forgive ourselves.  All we have to do is realize that our loved one’s are never gone.  They have simply changed densities.  Remember, all is source – so, we can speak to them anytime we want.  We can make peace with all of our faults, and all of our enemies!  The only stipulation – it must come from the heart and be 100% authentic!  You can’t fake forgiveness, nor can you lie to yourself.